The Theft of Innocence
By Karen M. Ball
This is me at age 10....pay no attention to the lopsided afro. A sister woke up late and had to git to school. LOL......At age 10 I look so innocent, dont I? But I will tell you that by this time, I was 5 years into being "seductively" sexually abused by an adult relative .
It was also 3 years after I had been abducted off the street by an adult male stranger and held at knife point and violently raped. Never go by looks...looks are deceiving. A smile and an innocent face can hide a world of hurt and pain. I had a tremendous amount of first hand knowledge regarding sexual acts that no 10 year old has business knowing.
I once heard a lady on my job telling some other ladies there about a 10 year old girl that offered her son oral sex. One of the other ladies responded..".ohh these young girls are such sluts these days...how nasty...she needs to be ashamed of herself...where is her mother...blah...blah...blah."
I felt a fierce heat creep up my neck and anger suffuse me. I confronted these ladies...I said NO 10 year old girl ever came into this world as a "slut"...even though we are born into sin...we aren't born knowing how to give "head". Y'all excuse my crassness & blunt speech...but I am a keep it real kinda saint...
I believe covering things up has been catamount to encouraging hypocrisy and enabling molesters to continue to take our kids...molest them and instill these sexual addictive spirits in them and nobody ever finds out because the children themselves help keep the secret. Why? because the children have been manipulated into wanting it to continue.
Not knowing any better, only knowing that the pleasures invoked in their bodies felt good...for the abuser never did anything to hurt us or to force us..they were HIGHLY charming & pursuasive...the attention and affection from the abuser fed something in us that wanted attention, affection and love . Hard to believe isnt it? But its true. I was once such child. And I know I wasn't the only one.
Back to the little girl.....I said to the women...did it ever occur to you how a 10 year old child would know about stuff like that and how to do it? I said I believe that child has been MOLESTED!
Somebody has taken her and exposed her to acts that go beyond her tender little mind to be able to imagine...but it did invoke desire. They have instilled in her a spirit of lust that now she is propigating this with the other woman's son. Its how she was taught to get attention from a boy.
They just stared at me....not comprehending. I couldn't explain to them in simpler terms what I meant at the time because I was so furious. Do not accuse kids of being whores, sluts and such if you see sexual behaviour exhibited in them at very young ages.
INVESTIGATE!
You may find this child has been the victim of a sexual predator and probably has been molested over the period of several years.
I got a revelation for y'all. I am no psychiatrist or psychologist.This revelation comes to me straight from the Holy Spirit after having been there my self. People are afraid to say it, but I will. Having been a victim of sexual molestation, I will put it out there.
Not all molestations of our children are violent in nature.
Not all cause the children to be in fear, in tears and being seen bruised and with torn clothes found in a ditch somewhere after a nation wide search or Amber Alert. Some molestations and abuse are very SEDUCTIVE & are secretly done over decades, so that the spirit of it becomes well entrenched in it's victim.
Adults with these spirits spend years invoking premature sexual desire in young people until these children not only do not fear their molesters but actively seek to be with them. Why do you find so many of these young girls 10, 11, 12,13 going willingly with some of these grown men who molested them?
You think this is because they are little sluts? No! They were seduced. They have been exposed over a series of years to the seducing lust spirit in these clever men. Their immature sexual libidos awakened long before they should be and they are drawn into desiring the sexual acts they have been manipulated into performing.
Desiring to be loved, and to please, their abusers knew this and cleverly did not threaten...or instill fear in their victims. But they preyed on innocent emotions, tender bodies and young minds.
I believe many women who suffer from nymphomania today were more than likely the victims of this kind of abuse. I was one of them...though no nymphomaniac...I believe I was on the road to being something like that until the Lord rescued me.
Young ladies and men....do not fear or continue to live in shame and blame yourself for what occurred in the past. You don't understand why you "like" the perversions introduced to you in your childhood.
In your spiritual captivity, you may even fantasize now as an adult being with your abuser or doing the acts they taught you with others...even children. You find this confusing.. You feel perverted. You feel alone.
You are wondering why do you do this? Because all you ever heard about molesters and their victims in the world today is a tale of horror...fear...violent rape and outrage. So, why is it that you did not run from your perpertrator? Why did you run to them?
You never hear the stories of the men and women who were the "little sluts" The fast girls...the "hot" little boys who were sexually active at too young an age. The ones who crave the touch of their molestor.
I have even heard men proudly tell stories of being seduced by grown women when they were 10 years old and losing their "virginity"...not even knowing they were a victim in a sexual molestation...
It was because they ENJOYED the experience. And there is some macho lie going about that a little boy should be intitiated into sex by an older woman.
The devil is a liar!
I am here to expose the enemy in this game he is running on those former young boys, now men. You were a child. It was no woman's right to initiate you into the "joys" of sex.
This woman is just as much a pedophile as a man who would do that to a young girl. No adult has the right to use seduction to lure young people into sexual liasons. In fact, it is not only not their right, it is dead wrong for them to do so.
Former victims and yes, even abusers, believe this, Jesus knows of you and He loves you...you are not ugly to Him or unlovable. He knows that today even as grown men and women you carry the silent stigma of having been seduced into "liking" your abuse and your abuser. He knows that you might even be perpetuating this type of abuse on another generation.
Yes, many of you have become abusers of this kind yourself and are shamefully continuing this behaviour on a new generation of victims. I am not here to judge you.
I am here to help you to find deliverance in Jesus Christ. Thus free your victims and yourself. The shame and conviction you feel is sent by the Lord so that you will not have peace in these acts.
It is to push you to the alter of grace. True repentence is the 1st step in your deliverance. Crying out in tears to the Lord ... in true shame..feelings degredation will assist you in obtaining freedom. God loves a sorrowful heart. God is also an enabler. He will enable you to get free and stay free.
I want to tell you there is deliverance from this...This captivity of this very clever form of spiritual seduction can be loosed. YOU CAN BE FREE. Jesus came to set the captive free...the power of the Holy Spirit and deliverance is still in the earth.
The chain of sexual addiction instilled in you as a child can and shall be broken. God did it for me. I know, He can do it for you. The blood of Jesus is powerful and no seducing spirit can resist it. He who the son has set free is free, indeed.©